A Breakthrough Leads to a Decision about my 50×50 Commitment

I made a decision last week that I’d been mulling over for quite a few days. I tend to be a bit wishy-washy about all decisions, whether it’s what to have for breakfast or something that will majorly impact my life. Despite being an artist, I’m an extremely overly analytical person, and I have to look at a decision from as many angles as possible before going one way or another.

About a month ago I decided to take on 50 paintings in 50 days. This was a good idea at the time, as I had success with my 30 paintings in 30 days challenge from September. And the first 25 days of my new commitment were pretty great…the project got me into the studio every day, and into a daily routine. I tried some things I probably wouldn’t have tried without the commitment. I could keep going, but my heart isn’t in it. Here’s why:

Some of these little paintings led me to bigger and better things. I fell in love with my little sky studies, and I decided to try my new technique and style on a larger scale. I took what I learned from the sky studies and applied them to a new 16″x20″ cycling themed painting:

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Final Charge
16″x20″
Oil on Canvas

I am so completely enamored with the process I went through when painting this. Something clicked in me…loosening up with my brushwork and experimenting with some slightly less realistic (and bright!) colors was so joyous. I feel like I’ve created something more unique than I ever have before, and it feels like “me”.

So rather than forcing myself to continue painting one little painting every day, I’m running with this new-found freedom that painting larger has granted me. I’d love to be able to paint a 16″x20″ every day, but it’s not realistic to think I can fit that into my schedule!

My commitment is still to paint every day for the remainder of the 50-day period I originally pledged I would complete. I’ll probably even end up painting more hours than I did with the little paintings. I’m so, so excited about expanding my style and working bigger, and I have several other larger paintings already in the works. I can’t wait to share them with you, and I’ll do my best to post some in-progress photos so you can see what I’m up to. It feels amazing to have a breakthrough!